The Light of Christ Burns Within My Soul

When I broke up with an ex boyfriend years ago I was struggling.  I needed to know if God was really there.  I needed to know if He really loved me and if I was going to be ok.  I had forsaken God and His church.  The misery I felt from being alone and from my sins was unbearable at this time.  The guilt and lack of a purpose has lead me to crying at night, angry outbursts, and darkness that was so thick I never thought anything could penetrate.  I was just recently coming back.  That thick darkness was starting to slowly be penetrated with the light of the Gospel.  The light was barely peaking into the darkness that had consumed my heart and mind.  I needed Him, oh how I needed Him.  As I raced up the stairs, tears flowing down, my mind racing I then tripped.  As I lay on the stairs pleading to the God that I didn’t even know existed, I felt Him! I felt His love wrap around me and warm the pain that had consumed my heart.  I felt a warmth on my body that can’t be replicated with any earthly experience.  I had been touched and there was no turning back.  That is the day I found my God, my salvation, my light, and my new life.  I can never doubt that there is a God and that He loves me.  Atheism was no way to live my life not just on the accord of misery but because it's not true.  There is a God and he is very much aware of us.  I testify that He will come to you if you reach out to Him.  We are all drowning and he has reached out His hand to save us.  He only can save us if we grab that hand of mercy, that hand of grace, love, and truth.  We need to grab onto Christ and His atonement.